I always knew I wanted to become a mum.
Now that I am one, I think back to the days when I wondered what it would be like... and I question 'Was it what I expected back then? Could I do better now that I'm here?' etc etc.
So I ponder.
I didn't really have expectations... which is probably a good thing because it's not what I imagined. The sleepless nights, pure exhaustion, constant worries and regular illnesses are part of daily routine. However, I must add before I depress too many friends... the warm fuzzy feelings, love and consistent home entertainment (without the need for a screen!) is delightful and I wouldn't trade it for all the wine in Tuscany... although perhaps I'd swap a bottle for a night or 2 off every 6-9 months ;)
I know what you mean Em, I didn't have much time to think about what it would be like to have kids, I started young. So no expectations for me either. I know its very difficult when they are so young and everyone says enjoy it while you can and you think to yourself - If only I could keep both eyes open!! They grow so fast, seriously! Love this Photo, looks like his thinking about mischief but careful of whose watching!! :D
ReplyDeleteThanks Marianne. It's hard to imagine life without them now, isn't it? And time is frustratingly flying. Wish I could have a pause button this summer, keep Jude in little clothes with his cute gibberish voice and keep Teags home with me for mid morning icecream and herb watering sessions, instead of primary school starting... do dee doooo. I didn't expect myself to feel the way I do about my baby growing up... She's going to love learning more though. Felt mature yet a bit silly visiting her new school though. Wasn't how I expected either. People still think we're in our early twenties because of our baby faces ;) slight shock when we say 'turned 29/30, married years, don't qualify for a student bank account' :D fantastic school though. ps. He is mischievous through and through. I love him ♥
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